Visions Of Warning

Before I had let my body shut down
and let it fill with the energy I needed to deal with today
my mind was screaming
softly at first
but then it started to rage
my body and my soul
they felt empty, hollow
then it happened
I went numb
so many voices saying so many things
who did I hurt?
why are you blaming me?
I don’t want to kill anyone!
NO I’m not going to lie!
it drove me mad
it drove me insane
stop it, stop the games
I couldn't take it anymore
pain, I want to hurt someone
people are testing me
testing their limits and my patience
poking and teasing and tormenting
all just out of my reach
I felt like I was stuck in a padded room
alone
no one would let me do anything
I cannot speak, no matter how much i yell
my voice was silent screams
they watched me and they studied me
like I’m some sort of test animal
the room is so empty, and large
then why does it feel so small
and cluttered
it doesn't make any sense
my tears flowed freely down my face
I could see the reflection of my eyes in the crystal liquid
my eyes were hollow and cold
no longer filled with the life they once encased
the room seems smaller the more i looked at my enclosed cage
or was I getting bigger?
No
the walls are closing around me
everything’s gotten darker now
it all faded to black
what has happened to the light?
the dark closes its cold midnight wing around me
I’m scarred
my nose is bleeding
my blood had run cold
I don't know how to explain this to you
I could feel it then
the walls were breaking me
as I screamed my eyes shot open
full of pain and sorrow
I sat up
my body covered in glistening beads of sweat
my pupils were dilated
my breathing wasn't normal
it was a rough, quick pant
I curled my knees to my chest
I grasped my head with my hands
so tight, my fingers tangles with my matted hair
I feared it
I still do
they always hold a warning for me
always
as I wander throughout this day
I wonder
what warning did this horrid nightmare hold inside?